Hit it

So I set myself a goal of $1k before the end of the month and just hit it thanks to a huge fish playing HU 3/6 hold them. my fucking christ he was terrible.

profit since i decided to get a grip of myself: $1372

Once again... GO ME!!

My new goal is another $628 by the end of the month...

The big rebuild...

Ok, so everyone pretty much knows that I fucked the chance to play pro poker, mainly through lazyness, alcohol and all that. I bought in to my brother's business and I'm back making an honest living. I was still making good dough from poker but stopped playing for a few weeks and got my head sorted out.

I had to withdraw another few quid from my bankroll and I'm now rebuilding. I want to make at least another $1k by the end of the month to take my bankroll up to a measly $3k.

10k roll by the end of the year plus some debt paid off.... Go me!

I'm going to really make use of the coaching sites/forums and all that good shit. Heard that one before?

Me too.

Not much going on...

I've played hardly any poker for the first 2 weeks in July because I couldn't really be arsed.

I played a bit last night and fannied about this morning for a bit. I think the time off has done me some good and I'm starting to enjoy playing again.

Need to get my finger out between now and the end of the month...

I'm back bitches...

Ok. I've finally sorted my life out. Full time poker is NOT the job for me. It's pretty obvious that I can't handle it. I'm too fucking lazy, I'm a pisshead, I'm not self motivated, I put myself under too much pressure, my feet smell, I have herpes and I really can't be arsed!

Ok, I don't have herpes... the rest is true though.

In a bid to get all my shit in one sock I started working a couple of days with my brother for a while. This quickly evolved into full time and through some jammy hypnotism shit I learned; I made hime sell me half the business.

If you're reading this mate.. 1.... 2..... 3...... you're under. You did an excellent piece of business with your brother and you should be proud of yourself. [SNAP!] You're back in the room.

As for poker....

I've withdrawn the vast majority of my bankroll and spent it on hookers and blow, beer and tabs and bills and half of an established business :).

I've left myself with about $2k and I'll be playing 2/4 limit full ring and 1/2 limit O8. My new goal is to be debt free (I owe around £30k!!??!!) by the 1st July 2009.

I might actually start listening to other people who say poker is a great hobby but a shit way to earn a living. you were right...

what the fuck am i doing?

i'm taking the blog down until i can figure out what the fuck i'm doing with poker. i have my whole bankroll spread over about 8 sites for bonuswhoring reasons and once again i'm fucking sick of grinding shitty stakes.

i've gone full circle.

i'm going to have a think about what i'm trying to do with this poker lark. right now i'm just floating around getting fuck all done.

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ok i was going to take it down but i don't want to delete it so fuck it.

Heater!

Playing 2/4 and 3/6 on ipoker to clear a bonus and running insanely hot. 4bb/100 over about 15k hands this month.

about fucking time.

it might be something to do with not stressing myself out about poker these days and just fucking doing it. it also might have something to do with the fact that the big fuck off shed i built, insulated and plasterboarded is now habitable.

peace and quiet lol.

Taking a Break

I'm currently taking a break from playing poker full time. I've started working with my brother a couple of days a week because I was pretty fucking sick of the lifestyle I had developed. I was a bit of a mess to be honest. Playing through the night, sleeping all day, letting poker rule my life, letting the stress of a losing session or two get to me, drinking too much, being lazy, not spending enough time with my wife and kids, blah blah blah. You know the score.

In order to get some normality back I decided to return to my trade (painting and decorating fwiw) which I haven't done for about 7 years. This has gone surprisingly well. I used to hate it but there's something satisfying about manual labour when you've spent so long sitting on your fat arse. Making this change has given me a bit of structure and it's had a positive effect as far as poker is concerned. I don't really give a fuck about winning or losing and poker doesn't stress me out at all. I'm also sleeping a lot better which probably helps. This has all contributed to a pretty amazing week at the tables so long may it continue.

I've certainly not abandoned poker as a career and it'll still make up the vast majority of my income every month.

At the end of the day I had to do something. I think I could have ended up a gibbering mess if I didn't sort myself out.

GL